THE RAY

By:- Sheena Palanivelu

Life was Gloomy and so lonely…

With no place to rest.

Rest? What rest? Thinks plainly

My mind and Heart in pain.

Pain? What pain?

“I don’t know!”  Says Mind in sulk.

“I know but wont say” Says Heart all sunk.

Quest for reason, search for cause… All but in vain!

One day there came a ray

Of Hope, and Love and smile.

It stayed for few minutes

But left behind a gimmick

Of happiness hidden in a mile.

Mile? What mile?

“Oh the distance” said my mind!

“Distance? What distance?”

For There is no distance for rays to bind!

I wanted this ray

For I wanted it to stay…

To have hope and love and smile!

I don’t care the distance…

I don’t mind the difference!

All I need is to bind!

“Bind us together Lord”

“Bind us together Lord”

Sang my Heart in want!

Who is this “us”?

Thought my mind in fuss

To keep me away from play!

Play? What play?

Of stages and drama and game!

No its not game or else it will be a shame

For Hope and love and same.

If it is a play

On a stage with clay,

Then Lord, mould it to make it hard

Hard so hard, so that it wont part

Forever and ever; No halt.

“I love this!” I said

To myself in silence.

Or the ray will hear!

Hear? What hear?

Let it hear!

So that u will have no fear!

Oh ray! Oh Ray!

Come to me and stay!

My heart longs for u all day!

I sang this on and on and on

Till my heart felt the song.

I felt it and felt it when one day it smelt it

My song and all my thoughts.

The ray came and stayed

And glowed its own light in my heart!

Does it know I prayed!?

Questioned  my mind to my heart.

“Oh You Silly mind! Stop doubting, will you!?”

It knows not my prayer

For it’s a prayer in silence leaving no clue

Who is this ray!

Who has come to stay!

Made up of clay!

Moulded up to make way!

To become “us” in play!

And make the play the way

Of life, Love, Happiness as all say!

Is it a dream come true!?

Yes!

Is it a wish fulfilled!

Yes!

Will I Keep the ray shining forever!?

Yes!

Yes! Is the word.

That I received with love.

A word full of power

When used in right place

And this is my right place

With my ray and am on my way!

On my way…

On my way…

It’s a long journey to take!

Pack the bag with all the snack…

To keep the journey in tact!

I love this journey for I see light in the end!

END? What end? I don’t want an end!

Crayon made my day better!

Had a tough day in college. But I didn't want a bad day to make my life dull. 

So I rushed to the shop (Odessy), bought black chart and crayons...

Got back to college.., sat in the Library and drew this to make myself feel better and calm.

And guess what!?

I did feel better by the time i finished it...

Its true...that...God gives us some talents to make us feel better and to help us out in the right situation! :)

By-
Sheena Palanivelu

Let the week BEGIN!

Clock says its 7:00 PM.
Sunday realises its time to Pack up.
"See you Next week" I tell him.
"Have a great week" He gulps.

Clock says its 8:00 PM.
Sunday is still packing up.
"You still have some more hours left" I tell him.
"Oh yes!" He says as he shrugs.

Clock says its 8:30 PM.
Sunday says he had a good day!
"Me too indeed!!" I tell him.
He smiles as his hair goes grey.

"Your Hair is Grey!" I exclaim in shock!
"Oh yes! My time has come..." He sobs.
"Do you die every week?" I question in shock!
"Yes I do! its my fate" He laughs.

"I want you to promise me" Sunday speaks firm.
I nod my head as i see him get old.
"Promise me that you will be happy in every turn...
And every path of the week" His voice very bold.

"happy during week-days?" I question him!
"Week-days are boring. I hate them!" I protest.
"If u want to see me alive" he continued his line
"be happy, because What brings me alive is - your interest!"

"My Interest?" I question him again...
"Yes, my dear!" he replied, "Your interest in welcoming the weekend"
"Oh yes! Of course I love weekend!" I proclaimed!
Sunday smiled as he was nearing his end...

"Do u know why I die every week?" He asked
"I don't know! maybe because you dislike week-days too!" I answered.
"Its because of u, I die!" He accused
"Me!? but how!? I wont hurt you!" I feared.

Sunday explained...
"You welcome me with so much joy!"
"I feel happy to land myself in your life!"
"But, You say good bye with tears and sorrow...!"
"I lose my strength to leave happy and so..."

"Does that affect u, Mr.Sunday!?" my voice soft.
"Yes it does! Makes me die..." He said in pain.
I was hurt and i promised, "I wont repeat it again!"
He smiled and said "Its time i should leave! Hope you keep me alive next week"

I thought and thought...
Felt rough and soft.
I loved Sundays,
And so I will live happy on weekdays!

Clock said its 12:00 AM
I opened my eyes ,  feeling dull.
"knock knock" i heard it in my room
"Good morning!" A voice said and with it my room was full.

"Oh! Mr.Monday!" I squeaked
I continued, "Welcome.. Hello! . . And so it begins?"
"Yes! U dont like it?" He asked
"Like it or not, Yes! Let the week BEGIN!"


Written by - Sheena Palanivelu

I Love you, Mom... Dad....!

I wake up in the morning,
to see the sun shining bright.
I hold the window railing,
to feel the touch of sun light.

I open my eyes,
to see a beautiful world.
I witness the sun-rise,
promising a new day to hold.

But all that am holding,
is the window railing.
I begin to wish,
things that i missed.

I missed my pulse,
that holds the essence
of holding on to dreams so immense!
Oh! Is it too late?

I want to make you happy,
alas! I fail again and again.
I dont want to see you grumpy,
upset, sad and in vain.

I have a capacity,
With which things i do.
I dont have the capacity,
to tell you what i cant do.

I want to make you proud of me!
So that I can relish your sincere smile.
But what you wish for i can see!
which sometimes i cant file.

Is it too late now?
Please tell me No!
I need another chance
To make things right and enhance.

I want to start again,
to find the pulse i missed.
I promise to work and gain,
all the things that i missed.

I love you, Daddy
I love you, Mummy.
Just let me have my pace,
So that i can create my space.

I know I lagged behind,
and made u feel sad.
I want to jump back and stand,
to wipe the tears that u had.

Will you let me do it?
I know you will.
Will you stand with me all fit?
Because i need your support like a pill.

Dont mistake me because of my failures.
I did not want to fail.
Please help me stand up in glamour,
so that I can hail your name.

Forgive me for hiding anything from you,
Trust me, I did not wish to do!
I did it in fear of seeing a tear,
that might drop from your eyes in due.

I love you, Daddy,
I love you, Mummy,
please understand that I do...
I wish to make you happy, so help me to "do".

:)

written by - Sheena Palanivelu

Johnny Depp

Tried to draw him!

And I think i have done a goon work. hehe

oh yes! I agree... It does have LOT of flaws . . But I like it... :)

( The Pirate!)

A new Start!

Today i was inspired to start writing a story!

I ordered a pineapple juice, and one Russian Sandwich and bought a new notebook to write my new story.

I didn't plan any story line. As i took the pen, a story poured down from my mind and it is shaping up well! Am so excited. I hope to keep this interest up, as it does relax my mind. Am happy I started something nice today. All praise to God!

Lets see how far my story goes. :D (giggles)

A Trip much cherishable!

I went for a trip with my college mates to Kerala (Munnar included). I had an amazing time. It was fun to enjoy nature and to know classmates better!

I am basically tired of attending classes. I know wot u wil say: "Enjoy the college days". Well, each individual different. Am tired of classes, period!. (hehe) So, the moment i heard about the trip to such a beautiful place, I was very excited!

We first went to the flower garden, which shocked me with its beauty and different shapes, each decorated with unimaginable shapes of leaves and highlighted with splendid shades of colours! I felt like God had fun painting during his relaxation time!

PIC 1:

[ This pic was taken opposite to the flower garden. I loved the way roads curved around the mountains! :)  ]

PIC 2:

[This pic below is the view of the Flower garden from outside. We went as a group, and so we were not allowed to take many camera. (wierd rules!): ]

PIC 3:

We went for speed boating. It was fabulous! Thankfully we got a very nice man to drive the boat, who took vedio and lot of pictures of us too.

[This is the picture of the Boating area! Peaceful in its own way! :)]

PIC 4:

[ Athirampalli Falls ]

This was an amazing experience. I got my camera very boldly inside the falls, which had pits and deep dark holes beneath this serene water surface! However, we did enjoy. My tourmates had fun in partially swimmin in these waters, while i stayed in a safer zone guarding my camera. 

[In this pic, the sky looks clear... but check out the next pic!]

PIC 5:

[Athirampalli Falls]

The sky was getting darker from my left side followed by heavy rains! It added more fun to our visit to this place. The greatest thrill was walking back to safer zone through these rocks. 

 PIC 6:

[Height of trees]

Just a random shot of the trees that were hiding the view of the sky! :) 

PIC 7:

[A View of Top Slip!] 

PIC 8:

[ Echo Point]

(Merged two pictures into one)

[Hardly there was any echo!  (Sigh) ... Due to more number of shops and people, there is less echo now a days]

Trip much cherishable.. (contd...)

PIC 9:

[View in the Veega Land from a game called "Thunder Fall"]

  

PIC 10:

[ Moon outside Veega Land]

PIC 11:

[Street lights outside Veega Land]

PIC 12:

[Sky above the Athirampalli Falls at 5:30 PM]

PIC 13:

[ The water was so cold yet bearable. But once i had my feet inside, i just could not take it out. The movement of water had no rules. Every small curve of the rocks made the water take different directions at same time. It was a beautiful sight.]

PIC 14:

[Another view of Athirampalli Falls]

PIC 15:

[ View in the Beach ]

My Paintings...

I painted the following ones... :) During my trip to my village...

Teacup says Good Morning! :)

When I was in my under graduation,  always woke up early to rush to my college and meet my friends. But as days pass by, friendly contacts vanish too. And, in the end its just few sweet friends keeping in touch to wish on birthdays, festivals or visit when I am sick. Well, thats called friendship :).

As months passed on, life too finds works to settle on and thus it keeps mind busy. The hourly sms to friends and the daily updates about life to loved ones suddenly comes to a full stop. We then realise that our life has become mechanical. Do we like it? Many dont! Even I dont like a mechanical life. We are humans filled with emotions. We all have an urge to express our emotions to someone and listen to the views and comments from them.

Oh well! Life has become so complicated now a days that even if its simple, it looks complicated. My life, I would say is half mechanical only. I wont let it become fully mechanical. But where does the problem lay? --->  Whom do i speak to? (LOL) . . .

I was thinking about this one day, and thus convinced myself that "People get busy and thus its good not to disturb anyone...". I prepared my bed and fell asleep. I got a dream about someone saying hello! And this "hello" became more audible as i tried to open my eyes. Was it real? No! It was not a human voice. It was my tea mug standing right opposite to my eyes on my table. I was staring at it, and the window allowed a rush of wind and a small coin fell from the shelf above on the Tea Mug's handle "Cling". It sounded as if it was replying back to me! Well... I smiled and woke up. It was my Bed-tea (I dont like coffee). I patted myself for my early morning imagination and prepared myself to drink it. But then I stopped... Brushed my teeth and got back to my Tea-mug which was waiting for me (oh! am still not out of my imagination!)

"Good Morning!" said the tea-mug as i brought it near my mouth and it happily poured tea into me, energizing me to start a new day!

Now... I told myself after having a hot morning tea... "thats called a cool friend!" 

2012!

"happy doomsday 2012" was the sms i received from a friend of mine when I wished him "Happy New Year".

I was not shocked but yes... I was wondering whether this entire concept is about Mental brainwashing or is it really a fact that is yet to happen!

Well..., World and everything in it definitely has an end. I strongly believe in "If something starts, It will end". The world did start and it will end one day. So, what is the hype all about? A lady i spoke to recently in a mall, told me that she is worried about 2012 as she is afraid to die.

Death creates the hype. No one wants to die. Well, here is the deal. We are not God to live for ever. We are humans who r born to live and then die one day. Why worry about something that is definitely gonna come one day. Maybe, we can concentrate our hyped up feelings on thinking how to live these days that are given to us in the best way. The secret to handle these fears is to be prepared for this "death" and try to make it beautiful.

So, what makes it beautiful? Our actions make it beautiful. Our thoughts make it beautiful. Our ability to dream, to relish them and achieve them.

Maybe our life may not have been good and perfect till date. Some of us might have committed actions that can never be forgiven according to the worldly norms. Some of us might have hurt some friends or loved ones so much that we dont feel like looking at ourselves in the mirror. We might also feel so irritated about the past that haunts us and the very fact that it keeps coming back might bring our energy down.

But I will say that, Every day is a new day! Each day brings a new start. We wake up each day to see a new sun and a new ray of light that lights up our room. the moment we move the screens of the window the sun light that touches our face tells us that "Wake up and start your life again". Our life is not about pleasing the worldly humans and the worldly norms created by humans. Its about living for the laws of the nature and the will of God. U might not believe in God or His existence. But... Havent u felt unanswerable moments of surprises and miracles in life? The moments where You lost all hope but the result was full of a new hope and happiness? The incidents where u almost met death but u were saved miraculously as if something stopped the car that was about to hit you... just to save you?

That is called the power of God who watches over us. And my dear friends, Death is just a begining. It takes us closer to God. So dont be afraid. Accept God's love in your life and the truth in the power of the death of Jesus Christ in the Cross. He has brought a promise that he will never hate us and will always be there when the whole world loses hope on you. When you are aimless and all your friends have given up on you..., just kneel down and pray and u will immediately see that He is there waiting at the doorstep of your heart with a proposal of friendship. U just have to accept His friendship, and u will see how your life changes :)

2012 brings with it a proposal to live life efficiently and the promise of God's presence in your life in everything you do. Be happy and be strong for God loves you.

Happy new year!